Monday, July 06, 2015

the world spins on ....

....without me. As it will for all of us, riders or not. I am feeling a little better each day even though I have no diagnosis as yet. I'm not being treated for anything specific- all of which makes me hopeful that my body is tending itself and making the necessary adjustments.

I feel suspended in time. When I go outdoors I can't tell by the sun or rain if it's spring or fall, the weather has been in neutral since I came home from the hospital.

I've not done any satisfactory stitching without stabbing myself so here's something that goes back a few months. My contribution to Charlies musical education.

He's had to start daycare a little early and it just breaks my heart even though he's a bold character and ready to meet the world on his own terms. He will flourish.

(If utube tampers with the audio here's the link to the music that was playing )


grace Forrest~Maestas said...

all this...i read, i hold you in my heart,
charlie, the sense of suspended animation...
so much Love, Deb
things will be ok.

Liz Ackert said...

Have watched each grandchild enter preschool ... including one today. It's a wrench each time (which I make even harder by listening to Nickel Creek sing "When you come back down")

For what it's worth, I recently read that grandparents have the most positive health gains when being with grandchildren one day a week. It never feels like enough to me, but then again it also doesn't feel like too much.

jude said...

bodies do that.

i used to dance my son to sleep.

he still likes to dance with me.

Anonymous said...

hospital, daycare, no wonder you're confused. I can't believe how much the little fella has grown already. (deb & charlie)

Vicky aka Stichr said...

i have worried about you. tho we don't know each other 'in person', i still worried. we can't be growing old, deb, it's just not F-ING fair.

as granddaughter #5 and i shared fresh garden peas, i would watch her 'march' back to the kitchen for another 'nummy' from mommy, and i would wonder how did she become 2 years old? when did that happen?

Nancy said...

Oh, Deb. you've been on my mind so much these days. This video of Sweet Charlie is breathtaking. He looks so much like you (to me anyway). He is surrounded with a caring, thoughtful & loving family...he is grounded in his earliest months in the fine care you all have given him...he is bonded to those who love him most. All of these pieces will contribute to his strength and resiliency. He will continue to thrive under the care of his family and now extended family.
Big love to all of you.

Judy Sall Fiber Art said...

What a wonderful video! He is so expressive, even in his sleep... glad to hear you are on the mend, although still concerned about why no diagnosis. My positive thoughts & prayers are still coming your way, and may each day find you growing stronger and able to do better!

Judy Martin said...

Thank you for posting this. Thank you for being so positive, all the time.
Things will work out.
Things will be better.
Your little one has had a great start with your strong love.
Now, you need to let yourself love strong dear friend.


secret messages

"He watched as she stalked a wide, slow circle that took her all the way around the car. She was wearing something short and black....

Play it again Sam.