Tuesday, September 24, 2024
Thursday, September 19, 2024
~truth~
This bundle arrived late yesterday. Thank you A!
I waited until first light to open it. Each piece is a treasure. There's even a huck towel. Those are always problematic because I love them so much that I have trouble using them once the colors come alive.
But this one and only shot made me face the fact that there won't be another dyefest this year. I ran out of summer. The itch has gone into hibernation.
There were lots of wild boasts and good intentions. I even bought a new tub of soda ash the other day. There's a two thousand-yard cone of white DMC cotton safe in its plastic shroud. I know there's a shortfall in the dye inventory. I'm just not moved to dig in and make a list. The biggest, most important lack is the will to do it.
My comfort cushion is that I have all the raw materials I need to make a thing, should that spirit move me.
And there's plenty to go around.
Wednesday, September 18, 2024
Recovery
This is my third confirmed go-round with COVID-19. Each has been markedly different which stands to reason as the virus evolves. Comparatively, this one was lightweight. A solid week of juicy head cold and loss of taste and smell. But, as the days passed I realized that I might be experiencing a degree of brain fog. A quite useful state if you intend on meditating. Reaching nothingness is not easy for a normally busy, creative mind.
These days, it's been all too easy to slip into a state of too-stoned-to-move, staring off into space. I got mad about it yesterday and busied myself. Routine chores were the easiest. Laundry, dishes. Then I settled in to try pushing colors and shapes around.
I went to ridiculous lengths with this. Pinning, basting, needle-turning - all rote activity. Without focusing on composition, a waste of time and energy.
Nothing wasted cloth-wise, thank goodness. This has been dismembered and the bits stowed together for future consideration when my brain wanders back.
Thursday, September 12, 2024
Solid rest
I spent the entire day yesterday reading. At first, it was just a matter of not getting sucked into the TV news. Then, this book grabbed me like a sticky burr.
At first, it was a quirky and beautiful use of language. Then the characters grew flesh on their bones and the bow of the story they had been pulling back on launched. Short, short chapters. One or two full pages and half of the flipside.
An unknown and compelling trajectory.
Reading something this good raises hell with my writing.
About 830 I decided I wasn't going to watch the debate. Live TV makes me anxious in history rooted ways. I was watching the live broadcast of Lee Harvey Oswald being brought somewhere when the man in the hat stuck a gun in his gut.
"Dad. Is this real?"
"I'll be a son of a bitch if it ain't." I had become an old fourteen two days prior.
I was watching the Today show, live, when the second plane flew over Katie Couric's shoulder to smash into the tower where I still felt that I had neighbors.
Then my sister called from the beach and said she was going to watch. Now I had to watch. And I'm so glad I did.
I heard a pundit say that you could really learn about people by watching a televised debate with the sound off. Since I have to rely on closed captioning most of the time, it wasn't a stretch.
I saw him, lurching. Rancid looking. Trying to puff himself bigger like a poisonous toad.
Then I saw her, sleek and chic, the lead lioness of her pride, stride across the stage corner him, and mark him. I hope she wears hand lotion. Something slimey like Curel. And she was brilliantly sharp and sly.
I sat on the edge of the bed just feet from the big screen with a hand towel that I thwacked the back of the desk chair with each time she burned him. If it was a drinking game, I'd be dead. The cats hid, bless them. When he spouted that pet eating nonsense I howled like a wild thing.
I wanted to see her leap to the top of her podium, heft a glittering spear and...I have a very violent turn of mind.
When it was over, I couldn't find the remote so I saw something that many didn't Watching him wandering around in the Spin room looking for some MAGA hatted geeks to shout "USA" at him.
There were none. He had no mic so he moved from one place to another seeking comfort. He looked like an old potzer angry because there was a long line for the Early Bird Special at Golden Corral and they made him stand outside.
The men with their backs to him were security, but the ones facing him, eyes only half on their phones, wore looks of pity. Disgust. When a microphone could finally be found, he just kept making it worse.
My sense of smell and taste came back. While I watched and raved, I ate a big piece of red velvet cake from Publix and licked the lid. I slept great.
Also did a new reading for 9.11
Monday, September 09, 2024
The heal
First light in the studio is the best for stitching but it still hurts to wear my 2.50 cheaters for more than ten or fifteen minutes.
I spent more time reexamining this silk trying to recall its provenance.
I got Nothing, but that 'Wind Between the Ears' seems to be the hallmark of this particular brand of 'vid.
Putting on shoes? Where do you think you are going? |
With high hopes, I dragged my writing bag and Chromebook along. Reread a few of my handwritten fever dreams and shut down any thoughts of getting any writing done.
The cats patrolled the lawn. I closed my eyes and soaked up the vitamin D.
With COVID, it's a pain how much home healing focuses on food and drink.
Tea. Honey. Whiskey. Chicken soup. General Tso's.
Colin made a batch of chili yesterday.
I made a small burrito with some 'cause you gotta eat.
When I was a kid, I took a bite of a mud pie to trick my sister into doing the same.
That's what the burrito tasted like. Dirt.
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