Tuesday, December 24, 2013

the gift

It's no surprise that this holiday season has been very hard for our little family.  Anytime someone says" What do you want for Christmas" our answer is "to turn back the clock and have Jimmy with us again, whole and happy". The best we can do is have a hug and a weep and then get on with life as he would have wanted us to.

After a very bad day yesterday I resolved to do better and started picking at boxes of papers; sorting, saving, discarding. As if the pile next to my bed was not enough, I went to the closet and took down a small box I knew contained old cards, letters and the boys' baby books inside - things I knew would make me smile. At the bottom, I found a another box with a few trinkets and this silver spoon bracelet.  I thought it was lost and gone and told one of my sisters-in-law so just the other day.

I had it made for Jimmy when we first got together. The inscription is "Keep on Trying", the title of a short, sweet love song by Poco that he introduced me to.
 A song about persistence and a belief in the redemptive power of true love.

 He used to wear it all the time but broke it twice at work. Twice repaired, it got relegated to "formal wear" meaning weddings and holidays and hadn't thought about it for years. I thought it was gone forever.

Merry Christmas my darlin'. Thank you.


11 comments:

lizzieb said...

good memories, even tho they bring a tinge of sadness, pop up at good times to remind us that those we love are still close in our hearts. Love and hugs to you and your family.

Els said...

a hug from far away

tiedyejudy said...

How lovely to find it at this time... I had an uncle who could "read" objects and tell things about their owners. Bet you can do that with this keepsake! This year will be unbearably sad, I'm sure... hopefully by this time next year, the memories will be sweet, and the pain a little less intense. Hugs to you all...

Michele Lasker said...

Deb, what a sweet memory.

Love from Tulsa,

michele

Jeannie said...

A penny from heaven. Merry Christmas and know that you are in my heart.

maclives said...

Kismet - happens when you are in most need of something unexpected but dear to appear out of nowhere...rekindling the strong ties of love from beyond the now...keep this close to you, Jim would love to know you found a lost connection to your wonderful love...ah, yes, kismet...Please know that much love and good feelings are being sent your way, let the love that many have expressed for you buffet the harsh waves that will come during this holiday time...Jim is with you, you may not "see" him, but you can feel him and he wants you to be comforted by his presence. Hugz and love for you and the boys...
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Nancy said...

This gave me goosebumps and tears. What a most perfect gift at this time. May you wear it well as you 'keep on trying'. Sending hugs, Nancy

Suzanna said...

Sending a bunch of love your way...xoxo, s.

Deb said...

Dear St. Anna..I tried to email you back but Verizon said "no go" ...was B. very naughty this year?

Terry Grant said...

Now you've made me cry... Not just the finding of such a treasure, but the message it bears. Peace.

Rosemary Claus-Gray said...

What a meaningful thing to happen just now. Treasure the moment, and keep the bracelet as a touchstone of his love for you.