Tuesday, November 17, 2015

the marked day

I hate the way the calendar we use wobbles through time. Dates falling on different days, year in and year out. The sloppy flux of numbers on paper. One day, more or less, in a whole month of days, so I'm not going to pin any crown of thorns on this one.

By some fool's measure of time, it's been two years since Jimmy had to leave us. On some days, it feels like forever; on others, just yesterday. It's been hard on all of us who counted on his love, his calm presence, his confidence in all things.

He and I never talked about this day as if not believing it would come could hold it back. Yes, once or twice toward the end. We made our promises to each other and kept them. He is proud.

We do what we must, what he would insist we do. Live life and love it, joys and heartaches coming in all flavors, bitter to achingly sweet. I don't feel as if he is receding from me in time. Each day that passes brings me closer in time to where he is.

So here's to you my darling. All my love, all my life.










10 comments:

Linda said...

I didn't know what you wanted to share today so I waited...well said...he is proud...I miss him

Judy Martin said...

Beautiful tribute to your love.
Thinking of you today.
xo

jude said...

i cried a little.

Nancy said...

Thinking of you today, on a day like so many others. Your love stands strong, it shows.

Barbara Barth said...

Beautifully written. It made me cry. Your words touch us all.

Dana said...

Two years is no time at all. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Liz Ackert said...

Your love in loss is an example I would hope to follow ...

Terry said...

Love and love and love....and sympathy.

Judy Sall Fiber Art said...

Love is eternal, and we derive strength and comfort from it. I'm sure he is very proud of you and your sons, and how you have endured. And I'll bet he loves seeing you with Charlie! <3

grace Forrest~Maestas said...

i have come to love you Jimmy
for how you Love and Loved Her, my tender friend,
More and more i want to know you... because you loved her so very Well