I feel like this sunset. Unsettled. The ongoing mortgage refinancing saga is exhausting. I hate it. It all reminds me of how completely spoiled I was when Jim handled this kind of thing. Remodeling, replacing appliances, anything like that. I was sent away - the beach, a friend's place, hotel, didn't matter. I came home when the last of the sawdust was swept up, my only job was to enjoy the end results and praise the GC, of course.
Our weather here doesn't know whether to shit or go blind. I put off planting seeds until this past weekend. I hope the indigos are hardy. I still don't know what I plan to do with it if it survives living in a 20-gallon fiber tub.
Tomorrow I'm going looking for more of these, #$%@&!
Have you ever had a word that simply skitters out of your brain like a drop of water on a hot skillet?? PURSLANE! It's purslane. I'm tempted to get a lovely wristlet tattooed on with purslane clutched in the dragon's claws, the flowers around his neck.
I ran out in the dark and rain Monday night to cut these and bring them in before they got knocked flat. I forgot about the ants. A small troop of them were marching around on the kitchen table all going "WTF?" as I trimmed leaves and arranged the stems. I just let them be. The window was open. Ants are smart. I also forgot about the heavy perfume. Whew, these gals are redolent.
I don't think the darker pinks have set any buds this year. The garden needs a bunch of TLC and a few bags of Black Cow.
We were hoping to get the truck up and running. It cranked and ran, beautifully and smoothly, but today, Jake found something leaking wrongly. Something that may be a bigger pain in the ass than we anticipated. At what fine delicate point do I stop throwing good money after bad?
I spent some time making some much-needed changes to the manuscript while the nuts and bolts of self-publishing continue to reveal themselves as pesky, complicated, but not unsolvable. I'm just not in the damn mood. One at a time, questions will be answered.
In the meantime, we live life.
2 comments:
ants in peonies ... no matter how carefully you try to get them all off, there are always more
and the "I just don't want to care" of ennui ... a much better word than "languish"
Ah.....when to let go. So hard to figure out when is enough. If you do- let me know how?
I kinda loved the getting out of the way of major projects but- I was the "Jim" in this family so
nothing would have gotten done. After the work for the day was done- and the work men gone home- I swept and cleaned and looked around to see "what else" needed doing.
I wish I had one of those guys on call.
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