I was in a bit of a tailspin through the month of June but I've pulled up and set my feet back on the path. Consider the alternatives.
The baby showers are bearing down on me so I kicked the
quilt making into high gear. The hand work - nothing fancy, just some very utilitarian stitch-in-the-ditch, felt good. A mild mind altering drug.
It puts me in a place of
no think to the point that I have to double check where I am at every corner's turn. Don't want to wander off course on this one.
This is where the real high comes from. The writing space. After a week of not writing (or doing much of anything but taking an extended wallow in sorrow and self- pity) I was asked to write a deposition for a custody case.
I was given the facts, the groundwork for the piece, and from there I swung for the fences and it looks like my words may have made the difference for the clients.
While I was writing it, I found myself in a place of strength and competence that I had forgotten about and it felt good. Felt like high test juice. Felt like something I need to do every day like any good junkie.